Everywhere....my mind, thoughts!

"Keep smiling, because life is a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about."
— Marilyn Monroe

There is nothing creative about this blog post!

My mind is everywhere with thoughts shooting out in every direction.

And I don't expect any of this nonsense to make sense.

I just think writing will give me a sense of direction or one can hope.

I hope though to share something creative beyond writing and my life.

I already forgot what I was writing about as the computer was about to crash, that and having two computers and an ipad all going at once is enough to confuse me at this late hour of the night.

My first complaint: I can't find my tiara. LOL. I need it by Friday. Imagine this, a girl roaming the city of Houston and the suburbs wearing her tiara on the day of the Royal Nuptials. Someday I'll go to England. And with enough time watching Jamie Oliver: Food Revolution maybe I can pick up the accent as well. LOL.
Honestly: There are two words I already have trouble saying right....thanks to my old historical geology professor (skeletal, I have to really think about this one, I now pronounce it skuh-lee-tul, or something like that, he engrained it in my brain). Thankfully his pronunciation of hurricane didn't stick, it used to drive me mad.
And thanks to Jamie Oliver I have issues with the word process, I pronounce it pro- you know like a pro baseball player, etc, so pro- then cess......

Another word I can't say and my family thinks it's funny but I'm not sure what is wrong with it and most people that hear it don't either, maybe it's because my husband is a yankee, but it's "ringer" oh and "hanger."
The things I get hounded about. :)
But my one and first dream has been England, then New York but I'm burning out on NY.

I will have to tell you what my son told me when discussing New York tonight with my husband and of course he was in the room. You have to understand he will be 17 soon so I try to remember he's a hormonal teenager with only certain things on the mind. Good Lord, Please Save me!
So I'm explaining that my mother wants to go to NY with me.
No one else does.
I personally don't think she'll enjoy it the way I will though.
I plan on Musicals, Bloomingdale's, and just getting out there.
And yes I'm riding the subway. I decided that will be my tennis shoe and non coach purse day, need to have a little safety. LOL.
My son asks me, "why, NY?"
He says he has never cared for there.
I explain books that I've read and just things I envision.
Women working their way to the top of companies, mostly glamour magazine, etc. Things I don't want to do but am glamourized into.
He replies, "you know how they move up, don't you?"
At that moment I wanted to slap him, not literally but I knew what he was getting at.
I had to tell him to take his mind somewhere else, women don't have to sleep with people and do horrible things to demean themselves to get to the top. I'm so ashamed of those thoughts. Boys!
But regardless I'm going even if I have to go alone.

Another topic: Love.

This was the hardest one to find a picture for, it's hard to find something to explain love.

I've been thinking about that word a lot: LOVE

It's something that is said too loosely between people.

I remember saying, "I love you" in fifth grade.

Seriously, what did I know?

I said it in Junior High, again what did I know?

How does a person know they have truly fell in love?

I have truly fell in love. I know because why it feels so wonderful, I found that it hurt as well.

I'm not saying everyone feels pain with love, that is just my experience.

I realize I never loved all those times I used those words, even half of those times I used them.

But now I know what it means to really have those feelings, to really love someone.

But is love enough?

Enough for what? Enough to keep two people going.

Can they totally fall in love again?

Or can you fall in love more than once?

Just my ponderings of love.

It's probably one of the things I am scared of the most. The feelings associated with love and the hurt that accompanies it. But it's not worth living without ever having loved at least once.

I love using Marilyn Monroe Quotes so here are a few I want to end this note on.

This is how I used to feel.

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."

— Marilyn Monroe

But using this feeling means you never experience love. You have to put yourself out there and give it a try. If you get hurt, get up, wipe your eyes, and move on.

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."

— Marilyn Monroe

This is the most magical feeling in the world to me. Just staring into ones eyes, not saying anything at all and knowing you are in love.

And my very last thought of the night:

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

— Marilyn Monroe

It is from here that I learn to be open to find out the reasons that things happen. Why are things changing? And eventually will you ever learn to trust others than yourself? If not, you will NEVER love in the first place or fall in love again.

But I do believe that good things do fall apart so better things can fall together.

We don't know why but there is a greater being that has the answers, we just have to be patient.

I hope that everyone experiences TRUE LOVE at least once in their life. :)

And for now:

"The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream."

— Marilyn Monroe

Good Night!

I'm getting so sleepy that I no longer feel I can make sense.